between my wonderful lovely niece and my friend I'm sick at home. More than ever I miss my mom...yes when I'm sick I'm a baby...and I have a tendency to over do it...with my vitamins, hot teas, medicine, box of tissues, and what not...

i think its a miracle that i haven't killed or gotten on my niece nerves with my over protectiveness...
well at least I'm happy that I've somewhat rub off on her...she is feisty, opinionated, sarcastic, and so on.

well since i'm drifting into lala land and floating on my cloud...I'm going back to bed...for now...


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I need my summer vacation to be over and soon since I've been spacing out too much...for example...I've been thinking that when someone edits a picture on PS they mean playstation...yeah...no comment..
or maybe I just need more coffee and less cigerattes...
I still can't believe that over the weekend I smoked a whole pack myself...ewww...my throat hurts and my poor lungs...
the only problem is that I didn't even realized I was smoking so much...since I was talking to a friend over coffee...
my smoking habits are starting to scare me because this is the first time in my life that I've been smoking on a daily basis...usually I could go days, weeks, months...without craving to smoke...and now...well its a different story...

Even though things have been mellow in my life I feel uneasy maybe because I'm not use to this slow pace and feel bored out of my mind and to fill up the moments of boredom I've been smoking more...
I would say I need to get out more...but most of my friends are back in school or working...I'm starting to think that it wouldn't be a bad idea to go to El Salvador even its for two weeks...

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For some strange reason I feel calmer than what I have in probably weeks/months…I don’t know if it might be because I’m in the eye of a storm or am I really in a state of tranquility…

Whatever the reason it feels quite nice to have a moment of peace...

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la verda es que no se que direcion quiero tomar.

Do I stay on the path of self discovery...that is bit loney and scary at times...
or
Do I find contentment in other ways....

For some strange reason a simple smile made my day today...
it helped reinforce how beautiful I am but most of all how beautiful being a woman truly is...

lesson for today: a smile really does brightens up someone's day...especially mine